Change in progress

OK so I've decided it's high time to start working on my main self esteem issue, my weight. I'm five feet tall and weigh 232 pounds. I don't feel as fat as I look in pictures but I know I look awful. Back in early 2003 I started using Slimfast and walking on a treadmill for up to an hour a day. I lost approximately 50 pounds in 7-8 months. I was down around 200 at that point and man did I feel good about myself. It gave me the courage to go in and have a breast reduction done. I lost a little more and maintained it until I got pregnant with twins in late 2005. I was at my pre-pregnancy weight the day after they were born. It was then I quit working to stay at home. The weight has crept back on slowly since then. I've had the best of intentions since then, bought a double stroller for walks with the twins but when they were 1 year old we bought our house in the boonies. No place safe to walk without loading up the babies and stroller and going somewhere else. Borrowed a bike trailer, same situation though and the babies hated it and would scream and cry after only a few minutes. Never got lucky enough for them to fall asleep during a ride or walk. Got a treadmill but could only walk if the babies were sleeping, I kept imagining little fingers caught in the belt or seeing a baby bounce down the belt into a wall. It got moved out to the garage where eventually one of our dogs chewed the power cord rendering it useless until it's replaced. I also had a membership to Curves. No childcare, no workout. I paid $40 a month for almost a year and only stepped foot inside when I transferred my membership from our old town and then when I canceled my membership. I suppose I could have tried harder to find child care or set up a schedule but I really didn't want to. Most recently I've been diagnosed with plantar fasciitis and a bone spur in my right foot. With custom shoe inserts, a night splint, and stretches the pain is slowly getting better and less frequent. This post is kind of rambling right now so I'll get to the point. Last week I talked with an Herbalife consultant. I know it would work but the $$ is more than I can afford. So I decided to go back on the Slimfast plan and have started working out with our Wii Fit. Hopefully I'll start to see some results in the near future. I am already mentally feeling a bit better about myself.